The Yellow Meadow :)
Standing at the Precipice :) 11/09/2011
I've finished for the summer at Eden! 4 Months of hard work, smoothies, Roul-rouls and Bread, completed!  I'll miss you little birdies :) So in a few short days, I'll be heading up to Leeds to University... I still think it's surreal. I can't believe it's finally happening, and I still don't feel as if I'm leaving home... it's so exciting! Leeds is such a big city, and one of the big things I'm looking forward to is access to the entertainment and facilities it has to offer. I've already bought concert tickets to see Scroobius Pip in Leeds, which is something I never would have been able to do in Cornwall... did this at Eden to celebrate:  ...for years I was smart - I'd recommend pleasant." I've been listening to him for a few years now and love his solo stuff, and was pleasantly surprised to find out that his new solo album is coming out on the 19th of September! I'm so pumped for it :) So I've got my second week of diet-attempts recorded. I tried really hard in the first half of the week and felt really pleased with myself, but then I posted on a forum about it and was told that I was undereating... which isn't great for my health, but at the same time overeating isn't, which is what I seem to have done over the last few days :/  I'll have to start watching what I eat again, and get back into exercising. I keep saying that I'll be able to monitor my diet and exercise a lot better once I go to Leeds, and I'm going to stand by that. I have a week left to set myself up nicely. I think I have to consider my diet a bit more, too: I can't just look at calories. From everything I've seen I'm under the impression that I'll have to eat lots of fruit and veg, brown and wholemeal grains and a bit of meat (as long as there's protein). I'm going to try hard. I've been introduced to this website called losertown, where you can get a rough estimate of your weight loss when you stick to a certain calorie amount. This is an estimate of what I'd lose with light exercise 3 times a week, with a calorie intake of 1400 per day.  I want to get down to 159lbs, and according to this I should reach that goal by February if I stick to it. I'll try to do it! Add Comment Cals and the end of the gap year :) 06/09/2011
I've been trying to keep my calories low, and recording my intake (and exercise) with a website called MyPlate, which has been really useful. I'm going to post the entire week every week to see how I've done, which should be interesting. I've worked out an approximation of my Basal Metabolic Rate (BMR) to be 1730 calories a day, so my goal is to be under that every day. So far it's gone well, and if I continue with it I should lose weight gradually.  All the "burned" calories have been from exercise I've done purposefully and recorded - there will probably be other calories burnt from work and walking and things, but I can't properly measure them so they've been discounted. Still, evevery day in that week has been under my BMR so I'm pleased :) Will start to have weekly weigh-ins I think to see how it's gone! I tried on my blue midi dress yesterday... still won't zip up. SOON! >:) Also got my lovely new dress in the post today - a short leopard-print dress. It'll be awesome for Fresher's, it fits beautifully. :) I've also been told to reduce my insulin (again!) which is exciting. Less insulin means less weight and less painful injections :) I love the tablets! This is my last week of work...I finish at Eden on the 10th. I really want a picture of the Crested Wood Partridges before I go :) They've kept me company during Baobab shifts, and been very loyal and cute. I think I might miss them O_o Starting at Leeds on the 17th! Equally excited and terrified, somehow. I've been working on getting things ready and preparing myself for the course... not doing very well >_< c: 01/09/2011
Guys, I've actually stuck to this again! Weight loss *is* attainable! c:  I'm so pleased! Lost 5lbs from my starting point, and my BMI is now officially out of the obese range! I am a happy bunny. I'm sure this has come from a combination of things. My medication's been reduced a lot - I'm now taking a lot less insulin (8 less units of basal insulin, and as my blood sugars have been much more controlled I've not had to take adjustment doses). As insulin facilitates weight gain I'm sure this has really help, and I certainly feel less guilty about the amount I'm taking, especially following the Carb Counting course I did earlier in the year. Yesterday I managed to take down my insulin:carb ratio from 4:1cp (2:1mmol/l) to 3:cp (1.5/1mmol/l). Exciting times!! I'm also still trying to stuck to a low-carb diet to keep my insulin intake down. Recently I've tried to cut out all the little extras I was stuffing in at work - leftover cakes and pastries, cappuccinos, hot chocolate... they were empty calories that I didn't appreciate anyway, so definitely not worth my time in having. Instead, I now take green tea bags into work and refuse point-blank to snack unless I'm hypo. I've been going hypo a lot recently and that's going to be the next thing to fix, considering all the extra calories I have to take in to get my blood sugars back up :l I've also started to re-incorperate some exercise into my life. Sterotypically perhaps, I've gone for using the Wii Fit. It's in my house, out of public sight, and it records calories for me! It'll do. I've used it four times so far (on each of my days off) and I'm going to try and do it every day, whether I'm working or not. I'm thinking that it'llbe a lot easier to get the exercise in, considering that the Circus has now finished at work so I won't have anymore absolutely ridiculous shifts. In any case, I've done 30 minutes a time for the last 4 times, and I want to push it up to 45, including 15 mins of muscle exercises. Last night I did the muscle exercises for the first time, and I really felt like they did something! Here's what I did last night;
In other news, I have 2 more weeks at Eden before I finish. Then, a week of relaxation before I go to Leeds :S Yesterday I enrolled for my elective module which was a scary experience - I ended up picking Upper Intermediate French and Introduction to Greek Philosophy... now I have to brush up on my French >_< nightmare! Looking forward to it though! Uhoh -_- 09/08/2011
Everything's gone downhill. I have a list of goals that I wanted to achieve before I left for university – I have 5 weeks to complete them all and it looks like I'm only on track for two (out of 10...) so that's not good. Why do I always do this to myself? I let myself down repeatedly. I just feel at the minute like I don't want to do anything – I'm just so tired. I don't want to play games, or read, or go outside...All I want to do is just kind of sit around and mellow out even though nothing has really stressed me out. I think I need to attack this by the jugular and get things working again, so here's my first move (despite me not really wanting to do anything... ugh). I went to the doctor's today and I had my medicine changed and increased. It worries me so much, especially since I thought maybe things would help... but my diabetes is getting worse. I'm so young. I need to get healthier, and eating more healthily and doing exercise is a good start. I've been told that a minimum of 30 minutes three times a week is a good start so I'll have to start doing that. That's going to have to be my main focus – what is more important than your body? I sure can't get a replacement... so I have to start being careful instead of just sitting around like a complete lemon. Two of my goals were to lose weight and to get into the habit of exercise, so here goes nothing. There hasn't been too much damage (thank God!) so it'll be okay if I jump back on the wagon. I wanted to get ahead on reading for University, and also do the essay-writing skills module on the Open University website to get myself back up to scratch and I've started neither. I think I should set aside some reading time every day, or close to that, to work on the books and the essay-writing. I'm currently reading the third Game of Thrones book so I want to get that done first. The rest of my goals were a bit silly. To finish Portal 2 and Pokemon Black, to get my hair done (maybe in September? I don't want to spend money unnecessarily though), and to learn to cook. These aren't as important but I'll try and do them anyway for the sake of my sanity. Good Lord, it\'s been a while. 02/07/2011
I'm so sorry blog! D: It's been a busy time for me - I've moved house and I've been without internet for a while. I've done a load of stuff, or rather stuff has happened. My job has changed, so now I'm working in the biomes at Eden - yay! It's like a promotion. It's pretty awesome. I've restarted the diet thing and I'm going to start attending a gym. I'll need to revive my diet counter! Diet Entry 30/05/2011
Fell off the wagon quite a bit here :( For the 29th, posted a little late again! Working Day Weight: 13st 11lbs (193lbs) Breakfast: 2 slices of toast, tea Lunch: Frittata and a salad Dinner: Roast dinner! <3 Snacks: 2 americanos, an expresso, a hot chocolate, a cappucino and a big fairy cake... damn being assigned to the coffee machine! Diet Entry 29/05/2011
(For the 28th) Forgot to do this last night, but I wrote it all down! :D Working Day Weight: 13st 11lbs (193lbs) Breakfast: 2 slices of toast, tea Lunch: Half a cheese and chorizo sandwich Dinner: 2 Fajitas, 2 teacakes, a chocolate bar (bad!) No snacks! Diet Entry 28/05/2011
(Actually for the 27th, but stayed up way late again today... sigh) Day Off Weight: 13st 11lbs (193lbs) Breakfast: Woke up too late for that rubbish! Lunch: 2 slices of toast, tea Dinner: Big bowl of pasta bake and a milko for dessert! Snacks: 1 slice of cheese on toast, om nom Diet Post 27/05/2011
(Really for the 26th, just stayed up pretty late) Working day Weight: 14st 0lbs (196lbs) - I swear what I'm wearing effects this! Breakfast: 2 slices of toast, tea Lunch: Potato & Aubourgine gratin with salad, Americano Dinner: Spaghetti Bolognaise, 2 chocolate bars Snacks: Apple juice, packet of crisps Diet Entry 25/05/2011
Day off Weight: 13st 11lbs (193lbs) Breakfast: Woke up too late so nothing! Lunch: 2 slices of cheese on toast with sweet pickle Dinner: Pepperoni thin crust pizza |
